SECRETS

Sometimes a person keeps a secret to protect himself but there comes a time when a secret is kept in order to protect a loved one. Such was the case for him. He loved her with all his heart but there was no way he could tell her the truth for it would hurt her beyond repair.

The devastation she would feel when she knew the truth would kill her inside and destroy everything that they had spent years building.

There are some days where devastation and guilt hits him, when he feels that he should tell her the truth but he always stops himself for he knows that the only reason he wants to do so is for himself.

He had to be selfish, that he knew.  He would never hurt her.

In life, there are always grey areas. Keeping this secret from her was his grey area.

He lived with the burden of his actions till his dying day. Even as her eyes looked at his soon to be lifeless eyes, he held his tongue.

She begged him, during his last days, to speak to her, but he never uttered a word. She thought that he was depressed, but he had to bite his tongue till he tasted blood to prevent himself from hurting her.

As a result, she got sad but her never got hurt. He eventually passed on and she never knew that he had a secret for you see, at the end of the day, secrets end with their owners.

(22 April 2010)